S v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed \u010di men\u0161\u00ed zru\u010dnost\u00ed jsem tedy vyu\u017e\u00edval tohoto um\u011bn\u00ed jevit se n\u011bk\u00fdm. D\u011blal jsem to s jistou st\u0159\u00eddmost\u00ed. P\u0159ipadalo mi nevhodn\u00e9 sd\u011blovat na dvaceti \u0159\u00e1dc\u00edch, co bylo mo\u017en\u00e9 \u0159\u00edci na pouh\u00fdch deseti. \u010casto sta\u010d\u00ed jedin\u00e9 slovo. I \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9. Ze v\u0161ech t\u011bchto d\u016fvod\u016f jsem v\u00e1m zpo\u010d\u00e1tku cht\u011bl odpov\u011bd\u011bt bez okolk\u016f, telegraficky: Co d\u00e1v\u00e1 m\u00e9mu \u017eivotu smysl? Nic, a p\u0159edev\u0161\u00edm ne psan\u00ed. Nebo\u0165 p\u0159edpokl\u00e1d\u00e1m, \u017ee se m\u011b pt\u00e1te kv\u016fli n\u011bjak\u00e9 knize, kterou jsem napsal. Spisovatel\u016fm je kladeno st\u00e1le p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 mnoho ot\u00e1zek. Jako kdyby vlastnili nep\u0159ebern\u00e9 v\u011bd\u011bn\u00ed, je\u017e je dnem i noc\u00ed st\u00e1le k dispozici. Jako kdyby p\u0159i psan\u00ed bylo v\u00fdchoz\u00ed v\u011bd\u011bn\u00ed. Je to opa\u010dn\u011b: m\u016f\u017eeme ps\u00e1t jen o tom, co nev\u00edme. Lze ps\u00e1t jen proto, \u017ee se pohybujeme sm\u011brem k nezn\u00e1m\u00e9mu \u2013 a ne proto, abychom je poznali, ale abychom si je zamilovali. Kv\u011btnat\u011b o tom pojedn\u00e1vaj\u00ed filozofov\u00e9 a mystici. Jejich texty jsou jako bohat\u011b vy\u0161\u00edvan\u00e9, t\u011b\u017ek\u00e9 svrchn\u00ed pl\u00e1\u0161t\u011b. Filozofov\u00e9 mne nud\u00ed. Jejich jazyk je ho\u0159k\u00fd. Jejich touha je skute\u010dn\u011b p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 netrp\u011bliv\u00e1, aby kdy mohla b\u00fdt vysly\u0161ena. Mystikov\u00e9 m\u011b uchvacuj\u00ed, kdy\u017e \u017eij\u00ed z l\u00e1sky a z \u010dir\u00e9ho pramene, ne kdy\u017e uva\u017euj\u00ed. Nen\u00ed mo\u017en\u00e9 rozva\u017eovat, kdy\u017e jsme zamilovan\u00ed. Jsme p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 zaujati p\u00e1len\u00edm vlastn\u00edho bydla. \u017d\u00e1dnou my\u0161lenku si nenech\u00e1v\u00e1me pro sebe. V\u0161echny je vys\u00edl\u00e1me k milovan\u00e9, jako holubice, jako hv\u011bzdy, jako vodn\u00ed proudy. B\u00fdt zamilovan\u00ed znamen\u00e1 b\u00fdt opil\u00ed. Jako \u010dlov\u011bk, kter\u00e9ho jsem v\u010dera potkal na ulici. Kr\u00e1\u010del, pit\u00edm zcela otupen\u00fd. Siln\u00fd hlas, \u0161irok\u00e1 gesta, pou\u0161t\u011bl se do rozhovoru se sebou sam\u00fdm. N\u00e1hle zalovil v pl\u00e1\u0161ti a vyt\u00e1hl ven pen\u00edze a po hrstech je rozhazoval po ulici. Pak ode\u0161el, opovrhuje sv\u00fdm jm\u011bn\u00edm. Odpout\u00e1n od sebe. Opro\u0161t\u011bn ode v\u0161eho vlastn\u011bn\u00ed. Ano, tak trochu je to s n\u00e1mi, kdy\u017e se zamilujeme. Vypr\u00e1zdn\u00edme na\u0161e kapsy. Ztr\u00e1c\u00edme jm\u00e9no. Uchv\u00e1ceni odkr\u00fdv\u00e1me jistotu, \u017ee nejsme ni\u010d\u00edm. Ale vzdaluji se va\u0161\u00ed ot\u00e1zce. Leda\u017ee bych p\u0159eci jen dosp\u00edval k jej\u00edmu st\u0159edu: jen l\u00e1ska d\u00e1v\u00e1 smysl m\u00e9mu \u017eivotu a \u010din\u00ed ho nesmysln\u00fdm mn\u011b samotn\u00e9mu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
S v\u011bt\u0161\u00ed \u010di men\u0161\u00ed zru\u010dnost\u00ed jsem tedy vyu\u017e\u00edval tohoto um\u011bn\u00ed jevit se n\u011bk\u00fdm. D\u011blal jsem to s jistou st\u0159\u00eddmost\u00ed. P\u0159ipadalo mi nevhodn\u00e9 sd\u011blovat na dvaceti \u0159\u00e1dc\u00edch, co bylo mo\u017en\u00e9 \u0159\u00edci na pouh\u00fdch deseti. \u010casto sta\u010d\u00ed jedin\u00e9 slovo. I \u017e\u00e1dn\u00e9. Ze v\u0161ech t\u011bchto d\u016fvod\u016f jsem v\u00e1m zpo\u010d\u00e1tku cht\u011bl odpov\u011bd\u011bt bez okolk\u016f, telegraficky: Co d\u00e1v\u00e1 m\u00e9mu \u017eivotu […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/211"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=211"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/211\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=211"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=211"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cestanahoru.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=211"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}